Today our Angel took me down memory lane. And I wasn’t ready. My husband’s been looking for his USB drive for the last couple of weeks. We’ve been in this new home for about 4 months now… and some items are still bagged away or in boxes somewhere and we have no idea where thingsContinue reading “(59.) Wasn’t Ready”
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(58.) WE MADE IT!!
Just like THAT…… she’s 1. And we made it…. we ALL survived the first year in one piece. I’ve spent the last two days reliving the events leading to our Yazzie joining us earthside. I can recall our every move from the moment I had my “bloody show”, to making a Whole Foods run…. andContinue reading “(58.) WE MADE IT!!”
(56.) Please & Thank You
When me and my husband first started dating, I dreamt about our son. For the bulk of our relationship, I’ve dreamt maybe 4 dreams in total, of this little boy. Because of this, I always felt like our first child was going to be a boy. When we lost our Angel, we were 1.5 weeksContinue reading “(56.) Please & Thank You”
(55.) Postpartum
So before becoming a mother, I had to figure out how to understand my body and conceive. Then throughout my pregnancies, I learned about the common occurrences of miscarriage, and that my body is utterly amazing. And now this part……. Again… I’m figuring it out on my own: this “phase” after having a baby. ThisContinue reading “(55.) Postpartum”
(54.) My Black is Beautiful
“My Sweetface, As you get older, you will quickly learn that there are some not so nice people in the world. The texture of your hair… The color of your skin… Everything that makes you, YOU… Will not be accepted by everyone. And those people will say and even try to do hurtful things. WhenContinue reading “(54.) My Black is Beautiful”
(53.) IT HAPPENED
So it happened…. What my husband and I dreaded for the last couple of weeks… finally happened. At the first sight of this overly excited movement, jolting back with an extra blast of energy exerted into the very existence of this “fall”, we knew we had to prepare our hearts for the halt that wouldContinue reading “(53.) IT HAPPENED”
(52.) LOVE
I love this little girl so much. They say a Mother knows this “love” from the womb. It’s immediate. And although I did fall in love with Yazzie at birth, what I hold in my heart for her as the days pass is incomparable. Something about knowing that this tiny human needs us, just makesContinue reading “(52.) LOVE”
(50.) REFLECTIONS
We are approaching the end of this “fourth trimester” and I can proudly say……… WE SURVIVED!!!!!! Everyone says you are NEVER ready to become parents… no matter how much you try to plan and prepare…. parenting comes with no manual. You really just wing it. My friend said to me once that we can planContinue reading “(50.) REFLECTIONS”
(49.) Dear Daughter
Dear daughter, First off, I want to tell you……. You are perfect.…….. and ….. ….I’m sorry. Sorry for anything you’ve inherited from either your pops or me, that will bring you unwanted attention. In your eyes you may feel less than beautiful…. and there will be people who will want to magnify what you feelContinue reading “(49.) Dear Daughter”
(48.) Post Baby Body
Well…. let’s be honest here….. I wasn’t exactly at my best physically going in to our pregnancy with Yazzie. (This was the day before we tested positive with Yazzie) All my life I’ve always been on the “chubbier….. thicker….” side. I loved fast food, and the only real form of activity I had more regularlyContinue reading “(48.) Post Baby Body”
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